White NightThe moonlight is flickering against the stone wall and the air aches with the stillness of the suffocating silence. I hold my breath. I had long ago given up on the hope that you could champion the evils between us, that you could be here tonight, and be man enough to break down the door to rescue me. A noise outside. My chest tightens. I know how the ending should go. On a still night, on a night like this the door would burst open, you would grab my hand, my tiny fingers lost in your grip, and your sheer strength would lead me into the dark outside. Some kind of obvWhite Night
Wandering ThoughtsNow and then, I lay alone at night and somehow, without meaning to, my thoughtsWandering Thoughts
stray from my bed, across the cluttered room and soar straight out of the open window into the dark star-speckled sky. I know they’ll be hurrying through the gloom In the direction of your light. I try not to encourage this. I worry that they’ll disturb you, or that they’ll return Loaded with painful memories – the sort
that are impossible to remove completely, the ones that have you scrubbing hopelessly for days on end and still leave you with a messy stain. So
stand by1. I have not heard from you in about five weeks,stand by
I feel like I am missing about
half of my self.
I cannot sleep,
my head clanks against hard pillows and I can never drink enough water
to clean all this away.
2. I called in sick at work again
and I lay on an unmade bed watching the blinds batter the window frame
into a broken blue. It distracts me from sleeping but not from the thought of
you.
Outside it is cold, the sky sits sadly, drooping clouds from its shabby fingers like cotton candy yo-yos
and
- Feels Like Drowning -Bitter mouthfuls forced Into a bloodied throat Deep to punctured lungs Obituaries wrote- Feels Like Drowning -
No one seems to realize I’m being pulled under Cruel waves, snarling, whipping Throwing me asunder
Do I seem fine, to you Why don’t you see it in my eyes Sopping wet and desperate Can’t you recognize this guise
Neglected and ignored Can’t keep above the water Please, toss me a lifeline Avoid this mindless slaughter
With no one offering their hand I swear to god I’m sinking Crashing through these oceans This hate I’m
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